Titles are really problematic devices...

I begin to regret posting the link to this blog on Facebook.

I went and opened Pandora's box. Now I actually have to go and put shit here. I don't like the idea of committing to something like this. It makes me seem...bigger than I am. I'm not sure if I can articulate that any better. And that's another thing--I have so much swirling in my mind, but somehow my syntax, diction, and all that fail me. I can't string words in a 'tangible' form in quite a way that they occur in my brain. It may seem hard to believe for those who know that I write poetry, but it is the case. I have never been able to just let words go. I'd probably sound really incoherent.

I'm not really sure how to use this either. It's really overwhelming. It seems like I will lose my readers if I talk about too many things at once. I'm actually having trouble writing these 'paragraphs'. My thoughts are all over the place and thus it's hard to say when I have deviated enough to make a break. And then I also have to consider the attention span of my readers. Gawd, I wouldn't be reading this if I weren't me. I've been successful at talking about absolutely nothing thus far.

Okay, so like...do I write about what happened today or reflect on a subject? Or both? I really don't get it. Seriously. It's just a blog, right? But it's really unnerving me. I don't understand how I am supposed to have two different types of subjects all rolled up into one post. An overview and then a discussion? Isn't that sloppy? Like, I could start off with the events of my day or some random thoughts and then somehow diverge into something weightier. But that seems like it would isolate my readership. Some people really won't want to read anything too heavy and others would be annoyed with the lighthearted bits. But there's a duality in everything, right? Hell, you can't please everyone. And if people are reading my blog, it must mean they know me, thus they'd understand that I can offer both 'perspectives', I guess. And wouldn't it be boring to just write about one type of thing? Like, really. Diversity is good.

Why am I fretting so much about a stupid blog? I must be OCD. Or neurotic. Surely this exceeds perfectionism... And tell me why I have been thinking about lines to come in the middle of my sentences! It's maddening. It's got to be the ADD. Or maybe the caffeine from the banana milk tea I made not too long ago. A combination of the two, perhaps...coupled with the fact that I'm listening to music right now and am unfortunately incapable of doing two things successfully at once (again with the ADD). It's really minimalistic stuff (IDM, to be exact) so I figured it would be alright, you know...it'd be stimulating and block out external sources of distraction (like my mother doing poor renditions of some songs I don't like to begin with...gag me with a molten plastic spork).

I should just wave the white flag and throw in the towel...which is also white. Yeah. I'm done with this. I've never rambled so much in my entire existence and most likely not in a past life. Maybe it wasn't a good time to blog. Look at me! I mean, if you're still reading for some inexplicable reason (You're stark raving mad! I love you!)... I just wrote a blog post about fucking WRITING blogs. LAWDY!

Oh, and I think I will be doing multiple blog posts in one day. Apparently it's not breaking some unspoken rules of bloghood. Good, I say!

Final thought: (Because I don't know where to go back and put this)
People manage to write hella interesting blogs that don't seem to have much of a format (Khloe is my current blog hero). I hope to achieve that with mine...one day...hopefully before the next dynasty. lol

I bid you all adieu. For now...