Between a Rock and a Diamond Mine

It's really difficult to condense 10 days of the college life into blogposts. I did not finish the blogpost that I had written on Wednesday because I didn't start blogging until it was rather close to the time I was supposed to leave. I covered the shift from five thirty to seven and you had better believe that once seven oh one got there, I was already out of the door and a good distance from the building! Clock out and run out! Sayonara! I am mad that I did not begin to warm up even as I went outside. In fact, I think I had gooseflesh for a whole hour after I left Antarctica.

Directly after 'work', I went to the inaugural Kaleidoscope meeting, which is K's LGBTQA (I think I am actually missing a letter) group. It was interesting but boring at the same time. There aren't many bisexuals, but there was a curious number of allies. It was surprising and disappointing at the same time, lol. I don't know if I will stay. It would certainly be a departure from what I am used to. I have never been a member of a LGBT group because there wasn't ever one at my high school (and since most of you readers are either alumni or current students, I thought it was strange to say so). It's rather strange. It really hasn't been all that long since I had my revelation. And even so, I think it's like joining the BSO (Black Student Organization). Okay, I'm 'colorful', can we move on? But then again, I have to look at those things beyond their face value and realize that it is mostly about civil rights than a bunch of 'prismatic' people hanging around.

Right now I am at 'work' again, only my boss is still playing this lovely little game with me called Absolutely Do Not Answer Any of Your E-Mails. My work schedule has NOT been approved, but once tonight is over, (a 5-9) I will have already clocked in for 6.5 hours this week, which puts me 3.5 hours behind. I am mad that I have to go home this weekend. I can't afford to be playing catch up with work when I have no other source of income. Today I fell upon the lovely news that I did not get a position for what was my potential second job. What the fuck am I going to do? I can't do anything without some source of income! There is a place hiring in Portage, but I still have not figured out the bus system and no one seems to be particularly helpful.

Actually, let me digress and tell you about how utterly splendid my day has been:

1. I stayed up until 1:30 typing a bullshit-ass paper on goddamn motherfucking bitch-ass Plato, aka The Ancient Greek Asshole. You can tell from my illustrative language how well I am enjoying reading The Republic and writing papers on it!!!!
2. My awesome neighbor and some other cretins woke me up this morning at 4-something. Screaming. Laughing raucously. Stomping and running down the hall. Saying something about someone being high (at this point I nearly sprang from my bed to investigate on the means by which one gets high at K, lol). I wanted to shout STFU, but my voice was tired. As the minutes wore on, I did say "shut the hell up" and "stupid bitches". I do wonder if they heard me. I sort of hope they did. The funny thing is I wanted to see what time it was, but I snapped my fingers and some other random actions (I think I imagined that I had my phone in my hands) for a few seconds before I realized that I actually had to reach over for my phone.
3. Because I was a dumbass last night and decided to procrastinate my ass off instead of writing the paper that I could have started on Wednesday, I had to hurry and finish my paper between 9 and 10. I was successful, thank goodness.
4. I got an e-mail that said that I risked being withdrawn from K and had to get to the business office before 5.
5. My psych class is a service-learning class. My excellent advisor did N-O-T inform me of this as we were going over my schedule. I already ordered the book for my class too, so it's not like I can just get out scott free. But anyway, we have to volunteer three fucking hours a week and then go to some damned reflection sessions to discuss the fucking shit. Once again, my happiness is evident!!! Soooooo, today is the day that we signed up for the service-learning sites. OF COURSE all the times are completely incompatible with my schedule. Wunderbar! Am I really surprised??!? Luckily, there was one that I could do from 10-12 on Saturdays. Oh, how I planned on waking up at 8:30 on Saturday too!!! But as we have learned from elementary math, three minus two still leaves one. One hour that I must volunteer. One hour that I cannot volunteer because the one other site I could actually participate in was booked and of course I have Spanish labs or classes or work!!!!!
6. I went to the library to hunt down my boss with the exceptional communication skills only to discover that he had called in sick for the day. I tried to PERSONALLY talk to him early in the week also to no avail. I wanted to confirm my work hours so I could get back to my other would-be employer about working.
7. As aforementioned, I discovered that said would-be employer filled the position already. Oh joy of joys!!! There's nothing like being broke as hell when you go to a school minutes away from downtown or when the goddamn caf stops serving food at 7pm like we're living in the goddamn 20s and eat dinner so goddamn early and some people have jobs with shitty hours that go through the archaic dinner times (like tonight, how most grand!!!)! Oh, and nothing like you know, wanting things, things that, of course, require some form of actual currency, and NOT FUCKING HAVING ANY!! Life is overrun with blisses!
8. I was walking down a hill and somehow I was no longer standing upright. I buttboarded down the hill for a bit. Actually, that was sort of funny, if you overlook the fact that I am no longer in possession of my pride.
9. As I was hurriedly walking to some place, my backpack decided to spontaneously unzip and so all of the contents went SPLAT right into the grass. There is absolutely nothing like borrowing a book from your Spanish professor (because she wanted you to have the book on the first goddamn day of classes although anyone with a flea-sized brain would have allowed more time) and having to bring it back in pristine condition to have it crash violently into wet grass, crease, and get well...WET! Stray blades of grass on paperback textbooks are ALL THE RAGE this season!! Pages with water wrinkles that stick together? A la mode, of course!!
10. The prof in the lab I covered today would not log off in enough time for me to clock in on time, which of course makes it look like I didn't powerwalk to the damned lab as to NOT be late. I was NOT late (technically I was, but I already discussed the fact that my class got out at 1:05 with the girl whose shift I was covering), but it seems that I was. A bowl of pleasantries!
11. My illustrious seminar professor assigned a fucking group assignment to be done for Monday. As if that weren't a fountain of goodness itself, I am going home tomorrow MORNING and can't try to meet or anything tonight because I am WORKING because I have to FUCKING PAY FOR COLLEGE THROUGH MANUAL LABOR. Damned expensive-ass school. Why didn't I go to Wayne State??? So aside from all the matters that I have to take care of this weekend and orgasmic Plato reading, I have to do a group assignment alone. Well, actually, it requires that I go to the library at K, so it doesn't seem likely that I CAN do it, unless I stay here after I clock out and try to work on it. Of course, I would have liked to discuss this matter with my prof, but I had to dash to the lab DIRECTLY as soon as he shut his incessantly running mouth.
12. I found out that my Michigan Promise scholarship will not be applied until October as I was en route to the business office as to stay in K.
13. I discovered that third week (that's two weeks from now) we have a group presentation (a group of seven, by the way!) in psychology. I LOVE group work, especially projects!!! :D <-- See me smile! In case you missed it, here it is again. ---> :D Oh boy, oh boy! I am bursting at the seams with excitement and my smile is sliding clear across my face past my ears!!! This is the SAAAAAAME week that another, but more extensive paper is due on Plato's Republic. I am ROLLING ON THE GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING FLOOR IN UTTER ECSTASY AT THIS EXTRAORDINARY NEWS!!!!!!
14. I don't know. That's MORE than enough! My day was shitty and I am about to go fucking BATSHIT INSANE!!!!!!

Final thoughts:

• I hate school again and I am already counting down until break
• I anticipate thoughts of suicide during fifth week (midterms). It's infamous. And I'm already thinking about weaving my hair into a nice sweater.
• I have two more hours and I am bored, lonely, and hungry.
• My blood pressure is still on the rise as I type this.

Until next time! I am afraid!!